Ten of Swords ~ pressure box of thoughts

I picked up the cards today just to do a quick reading to see if the store had the new game in stock. I was expecting to get a regular 3 card draw where I could know what to expect. Partly done to dust the cobwebs off. Anyway the first card I drew was the ten of swords. It struck me that it represented the boxed in feeling and pessimism.

A new meaning for me. (Sorry for the short post. I'm writing this from my phone. :-)

A look at the Tower

Last Friday I had a major headache. An especially achy one. While I was sitting down at the edge of my bed, eating an ice cream bar (cold compress or just eating something cold relieve some headaches), I thought about the Deviant Moon's Tower card.

If everyone spoke using the tarot to convey meanings, I would hand this card to the doctor because it describes perfectly what I was feeling. It felt like a destructive beam was beaming straight in my brain as the aura of the beam describes the fugue I had. The moon people falling from the once mighty tower reminded me of my thoughts that were falling to the wayside.

It's interesting how a tarot association can provide comfort during pain. :)

Has it been that long *blink, blink*

Whoa, I didn't know it's been more than a month since my last post. I apologize to my fellow tarotistas (just made that up lol), but between family, friends, hormonal changes, and keeping up with my studies, I was intellectually pooped. School took most of my energy because I was taking some challenging courses. However, you'll probably see more of me now. :-)

Even though I was really preoccupied for a month, I still did a daily reading for most of the days. I just recorded them in my tarot blank book. :-) Here's one them:

2/23/10 Influence Spread Deviant Moon

What is bothering me about my study habits?

1) Main issue - Rx Ace of Swords - I'm not studying as well as I need to. Also I'm not asking the questions I need to ask in class because I'm being intellectually lazy. It's there, but I'm not communicating it. Sheathing my sword, it seems.

2)Influence #1- 7 of Swords- It seems like I want to see myself fail than or to pull a last minute save so that I don't have to fail while trying hard.

3)Influence #2- 6 of Wands- I want to succeed and be given the hero's welcome. Stems from being a little too over confident. Once I doubt myself, it takes the wind out of my sails for the last ditch effort. My will falters. I know this, and it's bothering me a lot.

(Since this reading, I manage to turn a failing grade at midterm into a passing grade by the classes end. :) )